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lillilahSpeaking in the language I use with my psychologist: it has been a challenging couple of weeks, although there have also been good points.
Orchestrating the transfer of power for the sick Peace Corps Volunteers group has been crazy. I react poorly to irrationality, and the woman who is leaving as the head of the group is supremely irrational. She is also on medication that makes her very amped-up, which makes dealing with her very much like dealing with my nephew who has ADHD. I don't always deal well with that. As expected, she is having trouble not being in charge, even after officially leaving. As far as I can remember, I have never regretted a decision so frequently as I regret volunteering to handle this transfer. I still think it was necessary, but I can't wait until I am done.
The washing machine is having some intermittent problem, which causes it to occasionally trip the circuit breaker for our entire apartment. Then, we have to deal with it. (Usually, that means first shutting off every possible thing in the house, then turning the circuit breaker back on two or three times before things finally work.) The router hates this, and it takes 10-15 minutes for it to connect back to our ISP. Not being especially chill (in general and because of the Peace Corps group stuff), I fret the entire time the washing machine runs (and most of the time before I start it, as I try to figure out when is okay to have our power/internet go out). I'm trying to figure out what is triggering it (maybe washing Joel's pants?) and exactly when in the cycle it trips the circuit breaker. That will help me get information to the landlord, so that the next time a repair person comes, the landlord can explain exactly what is happening. (I want a video to show them, because some of the words I'm using don't seem to be the right ones.)
The conference about mefloquine side effects is coming up. I'm looking forward to seeing my mom and eating tons and tons of peanuts, cheese, and hard sausage (as I do when traveling). However, I'm very anxious about this conference. I want to see more studies done on what is actually wrong with us and how to treat it. I understand that the brain is complicated and studies are expensive. However, as far as I know, nothing is being done to figure out treatment solutions, which means that you have a bunch of crazy people (of which I am one) each trying to extrapolate from their own symptoms why everyone else is sick. We need actual science. I'm going to try to push for this. However, if you want something done, you have to do it yourself, which means that probably I'll have to be involved in finding funding (if it is even possible to hire scientists to do this). As seen with the Peace Corps group and since I _know_ that I get along poorly with people in the mefloquine community, this will probably be unpleasant and stressful. It will probably also be necessary. The Witcher tattoo on my chest is a reminder that doing things right is frequently a lot of work, but at the moment, I'm really stressed and don't want to do anything else. That will pass.
I'm also feeling physically crappy. On Sunday, I forgot to drink kefir, which happens sometimes when I'm rushing. That screwed up my blood sugar on Sunday and Monday. I don't _think_ that it could affect my blood sugar days later, so I'm guessing that feeling exhausted and unable to stand/walk means that I have to increase my carbs again. I'm also feeling anxious. Is it from all the other stuff? Or is it that I am still taking my winter dosage of vitamin D, and it is no longer winter? I don't know. I'm going to decrease my dosage of D and see what happens.
In good news, we've gotten lots of nice, positive feedback from the D&D story (send me a private message, and I'll send you the link), and I got a really nice response to my lasted Mass Effect chapter. So, that was all really wonderful.
Orchestrating the transfer of power for the sick Peace Corps Volunteers group has been crazy. I react poorly to irrationality, and the woman who is leaving as the head of the group is supremely irrational. She is also on medication that makes her very amped-up, which makes dealing with her very much like dealing with my nephew who has ADHD. I don't always deal well with that. As expected, she is having trouble not being in charge, even after officially leaving. As far as I can remember, I have never regretted a decision so frequently as I regret volunteering to handle this transfer. I still think it was necessary, but I can't wait until I am done.
The washing machine is having some intermittent problem, which causes it to occasionally trip the circuit breaker for our entire apartment. Then, we have to deal with it. (Usually, that means first shutting off every possible thing in the house, then turning the circuit breaker back on two or three times before things finally work.) The router hates this, and it takes 10-15 minutes for it to connect back to our ISP. Not being especially chill (in general and because of the Peace Corps group stuff), I fret the entire time the washing machine runs (and most of the time before I start it, as I try to figure out when is okay to have our power/internet go out). I'm trying to figure out what is triggering it (maybe washing Joel's pants?) and exactly when in the cycle it trips the circuit breaker. That will help me get information to the landlord, so that the next time a repair person comes, the landlord can explain exactly what is happening. (I want a video to show them, because some of the words I'm using don't seem to be the right ones.)
The conference about mefloquine side effects is coming up. I'm looking forward to seeing my mom and eating tons and tons of peanuts, cheese, and hard sausage (as I do when traveling). However, I'm very anxious about this conference. I want to see more studies done on what is actually wrong with us and how to treat it. I understand that the brain is complicated and studies are expensive. However, as far as I know, nothing is being done to figure out treatment solutions, which means that you have a bunch of crazy people (of which I am one) each trying to extrapolate from their own symptoms why everyone else is sick. We need actual science. I'm going to try to push for this. However, if you want something done, you have to do it yourself, which means that probably I'll have to be involved in finding funding (if it is even possible to hire scientists to do this). As seen with the Peace Corps group and since I _know_ that I get along poorly with people in the mefloquine community, this will probably be unpleasant and stressful. It will probably also be necessary. The Witcher tattoo on my chest is a reminder that doing things right is frequently a lot of work, but at the moment, I'm really stressed and don't want to do anything else. That will pass.
I'm also feeling physically crappy. On Sunday, I forgot to drink kefir, which happens sometimes when I'm rushing. That screwed up my blood sugar on Sunday and Monday. I don't _think_ that it could affect my blood sugar days later, so I'm guessing that feeling exhausted and unable to stand/walk means that I have to increase my carbs again. I'm also feeling anxious. Is it from all the other stuff? Or is it that I am still taking my winter dosage of vitamin D, and it is no longer winter? I don't know. I'm going to decrease my dosage of D and see what happens.
In good news, we've gotten lots of nice, positive feedback from the D&D story (send me a private message, and I'll send you the link), and I got a really nice response to my lasted Mass Effect chapter. So, that was all really wonderful.
