What Could Possibly Go Wrong?

It’s the last day of 2025 and for me it’s been a mixed bag.

My 19 year old cat Virgo Valentine passed away, I was very ill in spring due to a missed miscarriage which was not detected for over a month, an allergic reaction to hair dye resulted in me needing to shave my head, I finished very few art projects, my husband and I got Covid for the second time… all that against the back drop of the second Trump presidency and all that has come with it.

However, I also moved with my husband to this gorgeous new state where the changes in environmental factors have allowed me some relief from my MCAS symptoms. Quitting all streaming services allowed me to discover new music and grow a nice CD collection. Plus, I got a new kitten (Diogenes), my spiritual base has deepened to include daily practice, my husband has remained a kind and lovely person, our patio has been visited by a multitude of animals thanks to a habit of putting out offerings and… well, honestly I just love it here so much. People here are kind to me and I feel thankful for what I have

I have a feeling that 2026 is going to be full of hardship on a national and global level, more so than typical year. I hope I’m wrong and miraculous things will happen that will turn everything around. If things keep on course, I don’t have a specific intention or idea of how to navigate what’s coming. I do have some ideas to guide me through though.

First, now that my symptoms have improved to the extent that I’m no longer sick every time I try to eat, I need to retrain myself to eat enough to nourish my body without the anxiety. Even though I no longer get sick after eating, I’m still afraid I might be which has made me avoidant and a bit malnourished. I'm also going to intentionally limit the amount of news I take in and instead try to use that time for reading going on walks doing creative work, and doing whatever else helps me feel calm. Also, I want to make an effort to really show my husband and the animals that they are important to me by doing extra little things and giving my undivided attention whenever I can.

I guess the plan is to just take care of myself and those I love at the most basic level.

I’m not sure what to write in my first entry here and I’m a bit apprehensive. I predominately need a place to do some daily journaling about my rather mundane life and eventually post some art progress, ramble about my cd collection (which focuses on genres that most people consider boring), share some creative writing and post photos from day to day life. My search for a place to do this safely, while avoiding billionaire owned companies and edgelords has been… frustrating at best. Places that have algorithms feel a bit toxically rage baited and many other non algorithmic areas tend to only appreciate female presence if it remains open to objectification. Hopefully this will be an okay space for me. I would really like to connect to some likeminded people.