Crossing Fingers

[lillilah]

Well, I decreased my calcium again, since I'm still not sleeping well. Fingers crossed that this will work. I have been tired and kind of blah, so I was concerned that I needed that calcium to keep me going. However, it could be that these are two separate problems: 1) too much calcium, so I don't sleep 2) me feeling less than awesome due to dieting. We'll see how I feel tonight. I am very very slowly losing the weight that I gained after starting neurofeedback and having to eat more to keep myself functional. The good news is that I'm not completely insane from the dieting, which has always been the problem. I'm okay with eating less (and really all I did was stop eating nuts and putting as much olive oil on my dinner salad), but I have had problems with getting super depressed or unstable when I diet. If I'm just a bit meh, that would be okay. (I'm still eating more whole grains, which is probably what is helping me function.) So, we'll see. If all goes well and according to plan (not that it will), I should be able to lose the neurofeedback weight in a couple more weeks, and the weight my doctor wants me to lose in 3 to 6 months. I doubt it will be that easy, but we'll see. I could probably eat less greasy canned fish if I had to (I love greasy canned fish). Easier than that is trying to walk faster and for longer. I'm already trying to pick up my speed a bit. And, I am finally at my computer when I remember that I need to try out the electric bike, so I've set reminders for myself on Sunday and Tuesday. Even if I just ride for a few minutes a day, it would help get me used to it again. I'm sure it is obvious that being able to bike rather than taking an Uber, even on the most extreme assistance mode that the bike will do (which I think isn't all that much), would be a really nice additional bit of exercise. And when I feel comfortable, going on bike trips with Joel would be delightful! So, anyway, we'll see how this all goes.