Nerves

I'm not sure what I want to post on Dreamwidth, but since this isn't just a list of what I'll eat this week, I thought I would go ahead. (This is cross-posted to LJ.)

Anyway, this morning, my blood sugar was 5.4 (using the European scale), which is a little higher than the normal of 5.0 and higher than my regular about 4.8. This was a surprise, as sometimes after eating my blood sugar isn't as high as 5.4. Sasha says that this is unnatural, which is true, but at the same time, both endocrinologists that I've seen have told me to stay on the fairly low carb diet. Of course, my first thought was, "Oh, fuck! This is the first steps of my blood sugar being routinely too high. I'm going to need insulin." However, I thought about it more and guessed that seeing the doctor tomorrow to have a little cyst or something removed is causing anxiety, which is driving up my blood sugar.

Now, that clearly isn't good. The endocrinologist said that avoiding stress is the key to staving off needing insulin, and I'm guessing that doing too much (combined with the anxiety disorder and the pancreas problems caused by mefloquine) is what caused me to escalate from having some kind of problem with sugar to having diabetes. On the flip side, unlike previously when I had no sugar reserves and my blood sugar would just completely crash after I had to deal with something stressful, I might be in a position where I'm not actually killing my body with stress. We'll see. I'll monitor my blood sugar more closely today, try to relax and not do too much, and go to bed kind of early. It took me a week or maybe two to recover from seeing the endocrinologist last time, so I'll probably feel less functional for the next week, but if I am careful, probably I'll be okay.

Ugh.

Also, this journal looks ugly. I added my LJ colors, but it is still not good looking at all. I'll have to write some CSS for it.

Here are some links for me for later:

• http://wiki.dwscoalition.org/notes/S2_CSS
• https://www.dreamwidth.org/doc/s2/
• https://style-system.dreamwidth.org/49082.html

This will give me a chance to paint a new image for the header and maybe make something with a nice texture for the background. I assume that I can use as many images as I like if I do the CSS, so maybe I can make something really illuminated. And that would be helpful for the illuminated manuscript tattoo that I want to work on.

Think about:

• it needs to look nice on a phone
• I, obviously, want the title of my journal displayed
• I still need to figure out about that colored bar in Chrome on Android (here)
• Do I want to have it be seasonal? I could link to remote CSS, which could be generated by PHP....
• Do I want to go through all this work for something that can't also be used on LJ? Can I make it usable on LJ?
• Do I want to do something about the way autoformatting is handled? Do I want to indent? Obviously, lists have to be fixed.