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I'm having trouble writing
Jun. 5th, 2020 09:47 pmI'm having trouble writing. This isn't really a shock. I've been inside for a long time. I am dealing with a lot of anxiety. Dealing with basic household stuff is a lot of work for me. So, of course, I'm having trouble writing. Also, the story that I was most excited about writing is very much about "normal life". Right now, there is no "normal life". It feels weird to write about white suburban America, and maybe that is okay. I don't feel as uncomfortable writing about samurai in space or aliens fighting other aliens. Maybe, it is okay to put that story of demons living in the suburbs aside for a while.
In other news, I'm really enjoying getting more exercise, but I'm having a tough time keeping my eating under control with all of my body's increased demands for calories. Now that I think about it, I've been through this before. I dealt with it then. I just need to come up with a plan. Right. I remember this.
I've been having trouble with my vitamins, which is also a problem I've had before. I think I may need some vitamin D, since I'm inside all the time, but I can't make that change until I get other stuff in order, which I seem to be slowly doing. I've also figured out how I will get replacement vitamins, as there is a delivery service that will send my package from the US to me and have it delivered to my apartment by courier. It is definitely less than a plane ticket to the US, so that problem is solved, which has made dealing with the vitamin issue easier.
Now that I write all this, it is easier to see that these are just routine adjustments, even though the situation is a bit crazy. I'm going to get back to writing, and eventually, I'll finish my stories, even if I set some of them aside for a while. I will get my diet back under control. I know what to do. It will be fine. I will eventually make the changes in my vitamins that need to be made, and the end result will be what works for me right now, which probably will be different than what I need six months from now. And that is okay. I will get back to things I enjoy, like reading fanfic, drawing, and studying Russian. Someday, I will get to walk in a park again. Things are changing, and I'm making changes to adjust. It is okay. Some change is necessary, as in the US, and other change is just inevitable.
In other news, I'm really enjoying getting more exercise, but I'm having a tough time keeping my eating under control with all of my body's increased demands for calories. Now that I think about it, I've been through this before. I dealt with it then. I just need to come up with a plan. Right. I remember this.
I've been having trouble with my vitamins, which is also a problem I've had before. I think I may need some vitamin D, since I'm inside all the time, but I can't make that change until I get other stuff in order, which I seem to be slowly doing. I've also figured out how I will get replacement vitamins, as there is a delivery service that will send my package from the US to me and have it delivered to my apartment by courier. It is definitely less than a plane ticket to the US, so that problem is solved, which has made dealing with the vitamin issue easier.
Now that I write all this, it is easier to see that these are just routine adjustments, even though the situation is a bit crazy. I'm going to get back to writing, and eventually, I'll finish my stories, even if I set some of them aside for a while. I will get my diet back under control. I know what to do. It will be fine. I will eventually make the changes in my vitamins that need to be made, and the end result will be what works for me right now, which probably will be different than what I need six months from now. And that is okay. I will get back to things I enjoy, like reading fanfic, drawing, and studying Russian. Someday, I will get to walk in a park again. Things are changing, and I'm making changes to adjust. It is okay. Some change is necessary, as in the US, and other change is just inevitable.
